I’m Breathing……Just Slowly

I have to tell you before I hit publish on a personal post I usually let my husband read it. As a pastor he writes a lot of sermons and I trust his judgement. He also knows me better than anyone. He’s brutally honest (sometimes too honest).

When he read my last post he said, “I’m not sure you’re breathing yet”  Ouch! I assured him although it was a slow breath, that I was beginning to breath again. I’m a work in progress and some days (okay lots of days) the Lord has His work cut out for Him.

Yet you, LORD, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand. Isaiah 64:8

So why do I feel I’m breathing again? Well, it’s because my Dad is moving out (sorry Dad, I know you’re reading this). As I shared with you yesterday, Dad is easy to live with.

He helps me with so many things around my house. Wayne loves it and he’s really gonna miss him. But I think it’s been hard because I know and see everyday that he’s without Mom.

I know he’s lonely and my heart absolutely breaks for him. Dad loved my Mom and he was a great husband and is still a great father.

We say this all the time, but to know Dad is to love him. So I’m happy to tell you that Dad has met a very special lady.

Janet and Dad were set up on a blind date and have been inseparable ever since. They are getting married on June 11th (didn’t we have a wedding last June??) at her house (soon to be their house).

It will be a small ceremony with immediate family and my husband will marry them.

Janet is absolutely one of the nicest people I’ve ever met.  She loves Jesus and it shows and I’m very happy for both of them. I have to admit I have had some days that have been hard knowing that our family will change again. But I know that God is in this and he is faithful.

As hard as it is nothing can bring my Mom back and life has to go on. So I’m going to start breathing….slowly……

I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen. When you come looking for me, you’ll find me. Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed. Jeremiah 29:11-13 (The Message)

Have a blessed day!

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  1. I lost my my best friend 6 yrs ago to cancer also. A year later my Dad met someone and at first I was so hesitant to get to know her. I thought it was too soon. I was still grieving my mom. Well 6 years later I am still grieving her but Dad has moved on and is happily remarried to a wonderful lady. Your post hit home with me because I felt the same way. I could not breathe for months. Life is so precious. We have to appreciate every day we have with our loved ones. God bless.

  2. Cyndi,

    I completely understand your feelings entirely. But I do know this, God is in this whole thing. I am so happy for your dad, and Janet. I graduated from Mercer County School with Janet. She is the sweetest, and most loving Christian lady you would ever met. She will be a blessing, and a helpmate for your dad all the days of his life. You will know this to be true in no time at all. I congratulated your dad Sunday morning…and told him these words of assurance about Janet.

    You are going to have another busy Summer. I am so happy for your family! You are going to love Janet’s family also.

    Thanks for sharing!I was wanting to share this vote of confidence with you tomorrow.

  3. OH how exciting. It was hard to have a step mom and a new step family BUT it was so wonderful and a relief to know someone else loved my dad and took care of him. CONGRATS to everyone. YAY.

  4. Cyndi, I knew it before you wrote it! I want to tell you I have known Janet for as long as I can remember and she is a special person. She will not take the place of your mom and she won’t try too, but I know she will be there for you and your family all the way. You will be the daughter in her life she never had. It is never boring at your house is it??? Congratulations to all!

  5. Joshua 1:9- I love it that He goes with us EVERYwhere!!! 🙂 Blessings on this new phase!

  6. Cyndi, I read your blog often but don’t usually comment. I have to tell you that I am so happy for your dad. It sounds like he has found a wonderful woman, and I am happy to know that you can begin to breathe again.

  7. CYNDI! Wow! I am so happy for your dad. I know this transition is hard in some ways, but I’m so glad for your dad to have met a lovely lady. No one will ever replace your mom, of course, but you’ll love having a loving stepmother.

  8. How exciting for your dad. I know changes are hard, but this is a good thing. Glad you are breathing again, even if it is slowly. 🙂

  9. I am happy for your dad. I know it must be hard to have him move out but I also know you are happy for him. May God bless their union and give you the grace to deal with this.